I remember hearing about this in uni and I’ve wanted to try this for a while, but I always backed out of it before I fully got in, thinking that it has to be impossible. Today I tried it properly, and I have to say, this challenge is surprisingly fruitful. It really makes you think and apply language in different ways, develop tricks and notice patterns. I’d encourage everyone to give it a go. Here’s my attempt, an unexpectedly sad, slightly disturbing, story about the powerlessness to say certain things:
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Cyril is that kind of man who, although has such a small amount of control or clout, still insists on holding a mordant criticism for anything that occurs without his official sanction. It is as though Cyril had sat in an important position of an important board for a substantial duration of his vivacious youth, and now, lost in adulthood, was struggling to fathom his triviality. And so, Cyril constantly picks flaws in unknown of visitors, or any world affair, politician or policy, law or sport, which fails to pass by him first.
His family, which consists of his darling Liz and his autistic son Jacob, is constantly at the whim of his cynicism. Sitting in his suburban chipboard manor, lit only by Saturday half-sun, trying to thumb out strings of mango from his backmost molars, Cyril, glancing out a window abaft Liz, said,
“I want to split up with you.”
“Not this again.”
“What this? What’s “this”?”
“You always try to pull this shit nowadays Cyril. I’m sick of it.” Liz cut a mango in half for Jacob, and slowly crosshatching it, and still without looking up at Cyril, said,
“You can’t afford to split up anyway. Look at us.”
“I can afford it. Don’t say I can’t. I can. You sly bitch.”
Liz, who was busy placing bits of mango in Jacob’s mouth, stood up calmly, wiping off any surplus syrup, and unblinkingly, lips slightly apart, glancing at Cyril, quit his manor.
Cyril, almost in a form of paralysis, and upon catching sight of mango dripping from his autistic son’s mouth, saw how full and thorough his castration actually was.
But Cyril thought again, and got up to mop his oblivious son’s chin and shirt. Cyril found Jacob’s storybook and pulling out his bookmark and pointing to an illustration, said,
“What’s this Jacob? What animal is this?”
His son didn’t say anything.
“What’s this? It has a long trunk, big tusks and.. big.. flappy..” Cyril slowly saw in Jacob a crushing and distraught frustration, which was all his fault, and gradually put down his book and got up.
That night, Liz and Cyril laid on a worn out futon for hours without drifting off.
“What’s on tomorrow?” Cyril said softly.
“I was just going to vacuum today. Paying the pink slip and bills on Monday.”
Cyril’s wristwatch was ticking in a long and drawn out fashion.
“I don’t want to split up with you.”
“You stupid man.” Liz said in a half-laugh.
“I, I just can’t say it though.”
“Say what? Sorry?”
“No. Kind of. That and – I don’t know if I, if you and I, can finish this happily.”
Liz, looking past Cyril’s cryptic mumbling, saw through to his lucid, autumnal chagrin. And Cyril, looking at Liz staring upwards at the dimly lit roof, saw a similar dissatisfaction which cast back his own. Cyril and Liz laid, tacit and amazingly poor, twins on a futon, both with an inability to say what, if anything, was holding this family in unison.
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